I've been sitting here thinking about the past year, trying to get into the Christmas spirit and all I can think is, "Man, I'm SO tired!" I wish there were such things as Christmas Elves, because I need some. It's 11 days til Christmas, I still need to mail my cards and put up my tree. The tree is a whole other issue. Now that we have the boy and all of his accouterments, I'm not sure where the tree will go. Maybe out on the front lawn!
I think if it was snowing I could get into the spirit of things a little easier. No such luck though. You'd think being Jack's first Christmas that I'd be all "merry and bright." But nooooo. It's so unlike me. I LOVE Christmas! Way more than a little Jewish girl should! It's not the shopping... I'm already done with that for the most part. I've tried to listen to the major amounts of Christmas music I've downloaded on my iPhone. Not helping. I even got Jack's picture taken with Santa. (Which turned out amazingly cute, BTW.) What else can I do?? Sigh....
What is it about getting older that makes the holidays so hard to get into? Is it just that... getting older? I remember a time, not too horribly long ago, that I used to go to the card shop and pick out individual Christmas cards for everyone on my list. On the opposite end of that spectrum, last year was the first time in like 7 years I even mailed Christmas cards. Maybe I am a little disheartened by all the commercialization. Or maybe I'm just making excuses because I'd rather take a nap.
I really do LOVE Christmas. I love the lights, I love the snow (when we get it), I love the carols (what other time of the year do secular radio stations play songs about the birth of the Savior?), and I love the family time. I have the best family! My mom comes to visit, we head up to the in-laws for Christmas breakfast, we open presents (which I especially LOVE because my love language is gifts... go figure) and we generally just enjoy our time together. I'm looking forward to that this year, but until then I'm feeling a bit like the Grinch before his heart grew 3 sizes! I mean I'm not ready to go steal the Who's roast beast or anything, but you get the idea.
Obviously, I've got more work to do to get this merriment rolling. I suppose I will have to endure some more Carol of the Bells, and maybe even some Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas. Something needs to happen though, before my theme song for the season becomes I'm Gettin' Nuttin' for Christmas or You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch!
I hear you! First of all, how excited am I that you have a blog? Very. I had no idea. And it looks so funky cute. Second, I have a thought to share about this post. From a friend on the outside reading this, I think it's just the whirlwind of changes that have been thrown at you the last couple of years. A new baby! Maybe you've had certain expectations but forgot just how tiring it is to have a little one to take care of. I think if you just try to live in the moment (every 10th or 20th moment, realistically) then you're going to see a changed outlook and feel more in the holiday spirit. But until then, enjoy that nap when you can grab it :) Love ya, friend.
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